A matter of an EQ

I don't think struggle for improvement is bad. Benign competition is not a no good. As for ego problem is a matter of EQ . 提升自我是好的，但记得爱身边的人。

Ego problem

A good quality of a person is infectious I believe. Let say a little ordinary guy mix into a bunch of friends with good virtues, skills, knowledge, etc.. I think the guy will definitely getting improved. This changing will seen by others. But what's inside others mind? Will they getting jealous or feel threaten, 'oh, this guy is getting better than me, no can't, I must pull my socks up to get myself more improved.' Then it leads to ego problem between them. Start teasing and then become silence. Is it normally a used-to-be good friendship end up like  this way?

事业心 但不是 工作狂

This phrase finally enlighten me :)

Frust

So many affairs coming out from mind, it's just making my head going to burst. Today I'm very frustrated as I was rushing in looking for jobs. It's been virtually 3 months since I graduated from IMU. Look, touching my conscience, I don't wanna make my mum anxious for me as I haven't found any jobs. Yet, I know she care and never ask me frequently as she might think I might not put up with her or she scare of putting too much pressure on me. In fact there are many occasions made me sad and never make my parents proud of me.
Another issue that I worry of is whether will I losing myself if I stepped into the society. I meant in the interest  of making money, pressure from bosses, will I soon become a working machine that mold no self-personality and humanity?
I really hope I enjoy the prospective job I got and I think liking your job is just the perspective on how you see it. However, I want to be true to myself.

Could it be this Mood killer?

I would like to say that who doesn't have a dream girl/boy? Let it be your favorite artists, sports players, idols etc. When you're dreaming or admiring them, I bet the world you wanted is only between you and him/her........out of sudden a person (you don't really like) trying get into it...FUCK!!! The situation is like this, I got a female friend, she is good if she change the behavior of asking people many questions and talking loads of uninteresting topic. I bloody hope that she just treats me as a VERY MOST ORDINARY FRIEND. In addition, she don't have to "like" most of the posts I posted recently on FB. To avoid a wrong thinking on other people's mind. I've the urge to write this post after I posted my favourite Sharapova video, again she really spoiled my mood on this video...U know what it is.